Can I live ?

At times I don't even feel my own self, I ain't even going to lie. I feel dissapointed and agressive when things don't go my way. I get scared because when you loose, you start to become unfamiliar with yourself. And finding yourself again is not an easy situation to be in. Sitting around contemplateing wether or not this is the life you want to live, you'll give it all for a happy ending and some good kids. Unfortunately a lot of things are not handed to us like most people, but all am saying is can I live?