TGIF

Hey ! Finally the weekend is here again .. It didnt take long though, the week went by pretty quick.. So im confused with myself, im playing with to many peoples emotions and i have a feeling that i am the one that is going to be hurt in the end.. I dont know its fun lmao chill i sound like a jerk.. Anyways ima go out tonight have a good time, smoke a little weed, drink maybe, plant my lips on my guy and do whatever the fuck id like HOLLA !

Nothing is really what it seems sometimes i be wishing that this was all but a dream. Not wanting to face reality is a common theme but we just the characters which always mislead. See you could go your own little path or follow the rest show them your wild side show them your breast. I never fold in drama that shit aint for me I have better shit to worry about ya niggas is corny.Everyday is a struggle but some niggas just cant stay out of trouble I dont seem to get it, its like they dont know what they live for but like tupac once said "why am i trying to live, if im just living to die" "what am i trying to see , if there is nothing in sight". Our past is what mostly holds anyone back from achiveing, trying , or failing AGAIN. Were scared for those open wounds to reopen that we know are still there but we deney vehemently. There is some good out there for all of us but some of us are just to stuburn , talking bout how 'god why you dont love me, i never done nothing wrong promise ill go to church just lemme prove this motha fucka wrong'. Constantly i find myself contemplateing about all the people that have done me wrong , for a second i rage this feeling of vindictiveness but once i give it a second thought its gone.I think to myself there not even worth it.

LIFES A BITCH' CAUSE IF IT WAS A SLUT, IT'D BE EASY.

(SIGH) Another ugly fucking day .. Shit blew mine.. Today was not a good day at all mainly everyone in school ticked me off.. People sure do know how to push someones buttons.. My goodness and arent people noesy these days ? sheesh its like they have nothing better to do .. Get a life .. I hate two faced people.. I hate fake people.. Its very simple keeping it 100 with someone .. Wether there feelings get hurt or they take it personal thats all on them .. Anyways im on my (fuck the world) status .. I truely feel that people need to grow the fuck up , get a fucking life, do something good for themselves for once and be happy. They try to take my happiness away but i wont let that happen ..

Wow god is good! Today was a break through for my mother. She went to church for the first time in 44 years. I love her. We have been through tufF , tuff times. She has gone through stuff you cant even imagine. Its incredible.. She has cried her soul out to me today. Today is a day i am going to remember dearly.. I love god , I love my mother & I love myself for being strong enough. Dear lord i want to thank you for everything you have done in my life And i pray that you continue to mold me and my mother to the people that we are ment to be.. ILY <3

Good morning world.. I woke up super early today for no reason well actually to find out that my mom still isnt home yet -__- . Im worried because her phone is off so lets see when she shows up.. Anyways im making my own food, it sucks i usually have it handed to me in the morning, yeah i know i sound like a spoiled lil brat.. I might go to church today , lets see what happens. Ive been alone these past couple of dayssss.

Hey :) I cut my hair really really short !! And im not to happy with the results but whatever its hair; it grows back eventually... I am home on another rainy day but with the urge of smoking AGAIN. ughh i cant seem to find anywhere.. Im home alone, hungry and lonely.. save me from my misery .

So much soul lies within this girl. She inspires me. I am the aspiring singer/writer that i am today because of her. Everytime i listen to one of her songs it just gives me peace and a sense of serenity. I want to have what she has.I believe that i will make it ONE DAY.. My time will come.. I listened to her ever since i was young and i always saw a little bit of me in her maybe thats why i like her so much. Shes hot you know it >:)

Love. It is bittersweet, it is taunting, it is desire, but most of all it is fate. It brings out the best and the worst in most of us. We dont need it but we wan't it or wait, we want it because we need it? Still that is what we strive and yearn for. This subject is too complex for a simple minded person like me. Don't get me wrong i am far from ignorant. Love is blind and that is something i have witnessed. Us girls take these assholes way to serious but hey love just happens. They enjoy playing with our emotions to much. Agree? I hate that shit. But we learn; mostly the hard way though. Its the worst when we spend our time reminisceing about what used to be. Thats lousy. Love is lousy.. Well sometimes not always.. laterx3

I'm quite reckless.And the more that i underestimate myself i turn into a daredevil. People don't get to see the dark-side of me to much but thats because i decide not to show it. Thats when the name calling begins. Oh, your crazy .. You know what maybe i am "Sometimes the only way to stay sane is to go a little crazy." I think that we as people should stop misjudeging other peoples demeanors. Because i am one who is always misunderstood no matter how clearly i put it down for humanity. Its just crazy gibberish to them.. Anywho as the days hit the end of the calendar i begin to wonder where has my time been wasted? School, My head , WHERE? Time is one that is surely intangible. We cant contol it , it is inevitable.. It controls us.

Hi there, cold day, mixed emotions. Eyes start to swell up as the tears begin to drown me. If you dont want to deal with my bullshit simply dont talk to me SIMPLE AS THAT. I have my period so that explains my attitude towards life. I feel RABIA .... Feel like tearing shit apart , screaming, yelling all that ... I am crazy i know it for a fact ... but you know what i accept it .. No biggie . Anyways im talking to some guy named Jonathan. I find him cute others may not but it is I that finds he attractive so therefore they have no say in my emotions toward him. I am begining to develop feelings for him and i dont know if this is good or bad .. the bad part that has already been established is that he goes to the same school as me.. you know how that goes.. I am the type that does not like being tied down in no situation let alone one with a guy from my school.I have alot of speculators in that school and its begining to annoy me .. Well wait it has always botherd me but i am passionately strong about people interfearing with my personal life. Shit, like mind your business. Thats what i have been yellin to everyone at school today i was extremely pissed off .. ugh .. wow it seems like i wrote down a fuking book ... times like these is when i need god.. Times like these is when i need A BLUNT .. true story .. For the niggas Holla if you have me, FUCK you if you had me. What nourishes me, destroys me .. HOFFA

I am me and thats all who i can really be. Every time i try to step out of my character, its too peculiar so i step back .. "you only lose, when you fight back" man life is a journey for everyone. Im feeling mellow right now as usual nothing new. Its a shitty day, its the clouds that put my life on a delay. Im waiting for my moment, dont it bother you when people look down on you ? When they equal to you ? fuck that .... I am doing my own , not worrying about no one ..

I blame myself for my idiotic actions i take upon myself. I feel doomed with all this animosity. Like as if there wasnt another answer. People need to open their eyes to the bigger picture.. I consider myself as one of those 'looking at the bigger picture' type of people. I feel so alone at times its not even funny. And then i start to contemplate about all the people i know and its like DAMN.. But all i could say to myself is stay up & dont listen to what others have to say because at the end they are HUMAN and they DO feel the same emotions i feel so no need to worry. PEACEE X3