Nothing is forever.

This is something like my 'motto'. I've lived by this all my life basically. This is one reason why I never take relationships seriously. I rather keep my time than waste it. Taking risks is something I rarely do because I know I'll come out of there loosing something. Man I don't know. My whole marriage dreams are starting to get crushed. Getting married has been one of my main dreams since my child hood no lie, but I guess that applies to all females; right? Well as I get older I noticed a lot of things. I noticed that the couples you see on the street all happy and jolly and sometimes that you envy, they aren't as perfect as they look. Every realtionship has its sets of problems. And guys? They are very tricky, you have to distinguish the good ones from the bad ones early because if you don't you'll be fucked; literally.

Fatigue, depression?

I haven't been myself lately. I've been REAL tired, like extremely tired that I fell out in my Math class everyday this week. That's not me seriously. I have been playing Trey Songz all week. Like I don't know I might be depressed or something. Because I did experience a break-up recently you know. And I came to a realization that I made a bad one a few months back, but hey it is what it is.. He won't have me back. I have to get my act together thought but this fatigue is killing me slowly. It's messing with my life. Talking about my life it has be supersocial. And knowing me I'm kind of anti-social. (long sigh ) well this is it for now, later.

All I ever wanted.`

I can't find myself at this very moment, I am emotionally distressed. I will not walk around aimlessly because that is out of my character. You tore me apart, and I know that nothing lasts forever. But I expected more from you I guess thats where I slipped up. It's okay though because I'm doing fine. I remember those times when you had me going out my mind, but not no more baby. Someone better will come along and do what you couldn't. Which was make me happy; thats all I ever wanted.

Sick and tired.

I have trust issues, and I don't know if I could ever overcome that. I sometimes tend to loose people in my life because of this obstacle in the way. It's slighty sad that at times there is a HUGE barrier between my emotions and I. It's exhausting something that is physically and mentally draining me.

Badest truth

I'm so caught up, I'm so overwhelmed. It feels like I'm going crazy please go and get me some help. I'm so far gone, and yes I'm alone. I only roll with myself in case you didn't know. People claim this, people claim that , Im not believing nothing untill you prove all of that. I love myself too much to give it up that easy, baby I'm a lady it takes a lot to please me.

Ms. Ryder , you are one of my fave's <3

Lately..

So I'm sitting here with this incredible tooth ache. It's REALLY annoying! I mean really, I'm sure you know the feeling. Well I haven't wrote in a long time, I have to get back on my grizzy. I have been uninspired, tired or just plain lazy to write. Or maybe I didn't have anything worth writing or something that interesting to keep you or myself entertained. I've been living my life and enjoying it to say the least. The nice weather lately has given me the opportunity to actually chill, hang out and walk around. And I like it because that means less time at home. I'm going to continue taking it easy and doing me as usual. Life you have been treating me awesome, keep it coming please !

Trust no one.

I've came a long way from where I was in my past. And whenever situations arise where I am destined to move foward or backward , I always try to move foawrd. I hate going back into my past because all of that is already over and done with. Yes there are times when I sit and reminisce about the good times, but they have faded. So its up to me to make new memories ; better ones. At times I admit to being distant from people but thats something my past implanted in me. I can't seem to trust the people I want to trust. Because in the back of my mind "Trust no one" will forever be there.

Why is everyone so concerned about my sex life? Don't you have your own to worry about?!

Long gone

All I did was love you. But when shit started to get funny I had to switch up my style up. I was in denial for a while because i thought you were different. How naive of me , you could have stuck a knife in my back and still I wouldn't leave. I thought I couldn't breathe without you but truth is I'm exhaling better now. I have one less thing to worry about , baby you're so long gone.