Things that define ...

Some people think I’m aggressive, cause I know what I want, but that never mattered too much to me."

sometimes the best way to see a person is not to look at them cuz when you’re looking at them they’re gonna be on their best behavior

Is it cool for me to smother the facts? Is it cool for me to cover my tracks, if you’d never know? Or would me not being honest hurt you more. Hypothetically of course. Are there some things better left unsaid? Or would you wanna know instead..

She got book intelligence, street common sense, ain’t down for the bullshit. She can switch her mode from corporate to ghetto, either way she gone represent. Speaks her mind on what she does and what she don’t like. She’s that keep it real type. Cause see she’s very opinionated. You can take it how you want it, either you love it or you hate it.

i got lust issues, trust issues, fuck issues! but i got too many problems that i must issue


"Everybody loves you when they are about to cum."

"people will always come and go, in and out of our lives, but if theyre meant to be part of our lives, no matter what happens, theyll make it back to us, somehow.."

This wasn’t no ordinary love. Our sex wasn’t ordinary drugs. It’s crack, that crystal meth.. I mean it gets so wet, I had to go in depth."



" It is our enemies who provide us with the challenge we need to develop the qualities of tolerance, patience and compassion." ~ The Dalai Lama

He’s that guy that no matter how many more guys I go through, I’ll always have a thing for him."

A&S

Foreplay does nothing for me but commitment makes me wet. I already know you’re having an affair with words but boo, I’m married to it. My vocabulary leaves most men wary, I need to know … can you get into it?"

"And I can’t make you love me any more or any less. And I can’t make you relate to the problems I manifest. I can’t make you understand the reasons for my stress. All I can do is promise that I’ll try to do my best."

Wooo ! Seems like the best Monday ever despite the ugly weather. School was great lol well not really it just went by really FAST. Anyways there is some guy who i always see on my way home. So i was kinda sad walking by cause i didnt see him but little did i know he was THERE :) smoking a ciggarett under a little thingy there lol ! So he goes "i never got your name" & i turn around with my red umbrella and say "Sasha" and he says "Geo baby" wooo ! lol GASSED od .. Well he is so damn cute and he better stop me next time, that fucker >:)

As the days pass by , i realize is not as bad as i think. I amplify shit wayy to much and make it seem like i live the worst life ever. Little do I know i just have to be smart about it ..... Hmm no questions really.. I am happy where I am today & happy that I am alive <3

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE :)! But what luck do I have. Mother nature had to ruin it for me .. These cramps were killing me untill i took some pills :) ! I feel much better.. The smell of all the food woke me up this morning lmao.. oh man well yeah guys have fun , eat till you drop , or should i say till your button pops XD

i got few friendships, cus friends tend to shift. — Lupe Fiasco

I laughed when i saw this, the male species are SOO typical .. gosh

Prisoner of my soul.

I live life cautiously, because i know somewhere along this walk someone will be there to hinder my ability to get mine. There always is.. right? I do a little wrong here and there but i make up for it with deeds that come naturally to me. Thinking usually leads to disatisfaction, well for me. Negativeness never leaves sight. It's always there like a tail. Telling you all the macabre outcomes that can occur then you start to wonder the fuck did i even begin. blah blah blah im just bored... I am a prisoner of my own soul..

I love this poem x3

i am a prisoner.. a prisoner of my own soul
unable to express myself
like a picture on the wall
there.. but not actualy exisiting
my hands tied with secrets..
my mouth sealed with lies.
guilt as a hurdle, not letting me despumate
want to puke out this frustration that's within myself
feel so feeble, struggling to negotiate with my own conscience
my mind's manipulated, my soul corrupted
an onus to my very own being
just like a candle, finishing bit by bit
a force holds me back, whenever i try to escape
this life of hypocracy, insanity and pain
making up excuses.. fooling myself
not being able to let go.. ~
i am waiting.. waiting like a bird in a cage
waiting to be freed..-unknown.

over it.

Aright i admit it, my love life sucks. I don't know where I stand and I don't like it. No one really likes being alone and this is currently tearing me apart mentally. Cause see the old me wouldn't give a fuck whether or not I was single. But now is like theres this side of me that is yearing to explore love and everything that it has to offer. Me and Alex are not really talking right now. I think he is ignoring me. Too bad for him because when he decieds to come back it ull be too late and there will be no more second chances.There wont be no more us... if there ever was to begin with. At times i think to myself well hey i didn't waste all this time, we made it pretty far.. but for better or for worse i have to let him go because the relationship we have is unhealthy..I have to do whats right for me. He always takes my kindness for weakness, I'm over it. I will be patiently waiting untill the next one comes along.. which i know wont be long .. Like Hova said " And I'm on to the next one" ...

I am appalled by my own sincerity. I am phazed by my inner amenity. I try not to be to fond of the thing such called love. It irrates me thinking about the absence it has occured in my heart. It has caused me wisdom and serenity and i say this with fondness because next time i stumble upon the next man i know where i stand.

There's someone out there for everyone. So where's mine? Was there a delay or something or am I just impatient. I always get fooled and think its him everytime but as usual I am wrong.

Life works in vague, enigmatic, peculiar ways .. We don't get to see what's going to happen next and that intrigues the human stability to have any type of patients. At times my sense of humor is my best asset because it is the only thing that gets me by.

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I sink into my own. I dive into the shallow and get hurt each and everytime. I am hardheaded, I do not listen. You may tell me something but I'll tell you different. Yes I'm going to do things my way , ill learn from my mistakes there are no boundaries. All i ask for is for you too seek me as I seek you. My adrenaline PUMPS everytime you pass by and for a moment... i thought i had you. Now that you are gone i can't seem to stop thinking about you knowing that i am only alarming myself. No i do not see the light, i am deep in the depths of obscurity. I can be charming and maybe steal a smile. Its fatal atraction baby. Till death do I part, I will make this world mine.

Back to my old ways ? Yeah.. Rebellion is kicking in. Smfh can't seem to do any right any more. Blah blah blah ugh whatever you suck !

3/2/09

So yesterday i saw him after like 3-4 weeks. I missed him so much & while i was in the cab on my way home i missed him already. 9 months and counting and i love him <3 I know he feels the same way because those moments when he tells me so i remember perfectly. Yesterday he asked me "would it hurt you to show a little affection?" I didn't know he felt that way but everything turned out perfectly. It felt like if i was in a movie.. I'm not going to rush things because for some reason i just know you'll always be there I love you (A+S)

I want a love that's REAL. A love that I feel. A love that leaves me at lost for words. A love that when they hold you, your absolutely sure its real. FML i hate how i am currently feeling WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!

I want, i want, i want.

At times i find myself being my own enemy. I put myself down worse than anyone ever could. I always want what i can't have, i want what I dont have, I want what everyone else has, i want what i cant grasp.

This is now.

My actions reflect on my thoughts wich lead me here to this deserted place. Only those who look within and past the human exterior will be those who win my heart.Slowly but surely i will rise from this depth where ive layed my whole life. My face is filled with insecurties and dirt from the past which comes and haunts me now and then. My mind plays these tricks on me but i tell myself its these stupid hallucinations again.. Then they fade into the background while i dance around and inhale the pureness of today... As i lie in my bed and close my eyes these funny little pictures apear in my head , theres no where to run nor no where to hide.. I face my fears as if today were my last day. I push myself everyday because i know if i dont, no one else will.

"Live life abundantly"-Seven Pounds

"In a world of fakes, dare to be real."

So this is it. Life is coming quicker and closer to its destination. It ended in a blink of an eye, better said it ended before it even started. The moon lights up my soul and it gives me hope for many days to come. I may be misunderstood and i may get my ego struct a lot but no one could tell me different. I am me and this is all i know. I can't be no one else , trust me i've tried and i failed. At the end of the day its just me left alone with shitty emotions, so why not make the best out of my life? I dont give a fuck what anyone thinks, says or misbelieved they saw. I dont dwell on these pitty suckers, sucked into this hole of enmity. They are trapped and cannot come out until they have realized all the silly foolish games they have been playing among themselves. Play your cards right, forreal because if you dont sooner or later the tables will turn and shit will begin to backfire on you, you know what I am talking about.

"BE REAL, HAVE HEART, LIVE LIFE."

Blahhh -_____- sigh i hate finding shit out.. somethings are better left unsaid...Trying to change someone is nearly impossible. I guess i should have never tried in the first place .. Happy birthday though, your 18 today.

They say every sweet has its sour but still niggas like to devour me , yes sweety i think its about that hour, jump in the shower call ma boy howard tell him we need to do the austin powers.. Get freaky baby , get freaky . DONT ASK LOL !

wass good ! Today was so blah but he lit my day up. With him he makes my heart jump and every second that we are together i can't get enough. I dont want him to be anywhere else then with me , i know a bit selfish but so what.