The sound of the flames are beggining to get louder. I can't stop misbehaving and not following rules. What I am supose to do ? I'm confused..

Running away from something bigger than me.

Running away from problems that I no longer feel like copeing with. My heart is pounding at the same rate as my thoughts is. I can't take it, I'm giving up, I'm relapsing, I DONT GIVE A FUCK! I've been down this road many times before but this man once told me 'just hold on and be strong'.

xo

I don't know why i still find myself thinking of you till this day. I said I was over you which I am but the truth is I think i still might love you. What we had was something I never had before and thats why it hit me hard. Seeing you now with your new gf on facebbook doesnt really bother me.. I just laugh because shes a downgrade from me. But hey if youre happy, be happy.. I dont know.. maybe is the weather that has me reminising or maybe its your clothes that are lying around my house that lingers you closer to me. Or is it the dreams, cause quite honestly I see you there too ... but listen life goes on ... and like you just wrote on your status " I love you enough to let you go " ...

bullshit.

As I get older, i view people differently. I learn about all their bullshit and fairy tail liess. But I get wiser as I go along. Headaches and pangs come around too but never stay around much. Sometimes I think incorrectly because im soo confused, unheard, sad? , lonely? I dont know.. My insanity has vanished. Growing and tearing about into a new me, a better me, a SMARTER me. Life is love but love is EVIL. "I think and therfore I am" I am a overachiever with the things i want in life, and starting off with you, that can be a lost case ;)

Lagrimas

I hate when I get that urge to cry. That lump in your throat appears and its hard to swallow. Then suddenly those tears emerge. So gentle yet so spiteful.

People are so fucking selfish OMG... My "friends" have been showing their true colors lately and its not a good sight. I'm slowing adapting to being by myself all the time and coping with my own problems. But you know what, I will still be there for them when they decide to not give me their backs anymore BECAUSE THATS THE TYPE OF GIRL I AM. I don't hold grudges but I do remember shit, foul shit that you do then go and call yourself my "friend"? Get the fuck out of here man. Where the hell did loyalty go? Did all ya bitches forget the meaning of a friendship? I guess so.... Anyway from now on I vow to myself to only count on myself for everything cause thats how shit has to be now. I don't give a fuck anymore.

Not much changes but the people.