People are so fucking selfish OMG... My "friends" have been showing their true colors lately and its not a good sight. I'm slowing adapting to being by myself all the time and coping with my own problems. But you know what, I will still be there for them when they decide to not give me their backs anymore BECAUSE THATS THE TYPE OF GIRL I AM. I don't hold grudges but I do remember shit, foul shit that you do then go and call yourself my "friend"? Get the fuck out of here man. Where the hell did loyalty go? Did all ya bitches forget the meaning of a friendship? I guess so.... Anyway from now on I vow to myself to only count on myself for everything cause thats how shit has to be now. I don't give a fuck anymore.

Not much changes but the people.

Bitches are so fucking stupid now a days.... so many many fakes out here. Can't deal.

I wonder why I never learn my lesson.

I've been trying to run away from my past trying to change the person I was before. I'm sick and tired of going through the same shit over and over again so here I go looking for a better solution today.Who will I be tomorrow? I need to get it right man cause it feels like im running out of time.

Without having the inability to speak, my mind will be shut behind big metal gates. I wouldn't be able to express myself to this world to which is oblivious to love but open to hate. Sin has been around since adam and eve and still we believe if we pray we will be clean of our bad deeds. When you redeem you will see the light

Completely careless.

As the days go by, I can't help but remain still. The silence eats up my soul and leaves nothing, if there was anything to begin with. I refrain from the world so much because I'm afraid of hurt and dispassion and ignorance and what other people have to say. But to come to think of it, these people, YOU, do not know what journeys and downfalls I have encountered. So who are you to judge me? I live to make myself content and sometimes make those close to me happy. I need to do what makes me smile and gives me bliss. I wan't to be able to wear what I want without eyes burning holes in the back of my neck. I WAN'T TO BE FREE. Let go of all my insecurities and live a completely careless life.

I had decions that I've put off for the fact of fear. It made eveything so complicated when I was so near. I couldn't accomplish my goal, I'm not even whole.