2010

Happy New Years Eve !! Welcome 2010. May you bring wonderful and sweet memories. Leave all the negative stuff at the door please. I will have a blast tonight drink a little and maybe smoke a little. LATERR

Such a bore

This city is so lonely. Why? Why must everyone be so frightend to step out of there comfort zone and try new things. I feel as If we all need to lighten up. Seriously I hate when there Is NOTHING to do. It's such a tragedy and a bore. (SIGH). I didn't feel like writing but look at me writing. This is what it comes down to... Breaking the rules has its consequences yes, but I mean why not risk something for once. Fuck it!

Relations.

Relationships are difficult.What's even more hard is keeping lovefest together. I don't know about everyone else but when I have those sweet, movie type of moments .. My boyfriend always has to go fuck it up. But you know what Love is looking beyond the flaws. I've learned to dig deeper.. There are answers surrounding us.. They are all over the place. I guess most of us are just to blind to see em'.

Cope with thyself

I bare with myself only because I live with myself. I canno't get rid of myself but I do not wan't to. I learn from my mistakes although at times I obliviously commit the same error over and over again. I reiterate " I deserve better" great, now I just have to believe it..

LOYALTY & HONESTY ..

Fake individuals get no where In life.. NO WHERE, I rather be blatantly honest with myself and others who surround me than live a lie. I do not care wether or not I hurt your feelings because at the end of the day you are going to be glad I told you what it is. Everyone needs a TRUE friend ya digg!

Great my day just got WORSE !! So back to my post VV down there ... well i just finished throwing up.. nice

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What day... (sigh) it didn't turn out how I anticipated. I got a lovely text this morning from my baby, you know I thought I was going to be fine and slide right through the day but NO. Life decided to be a bit of a rebel.. See this is the problem with waiting for your friend to get ready to go to school.. When shes late, YOUR late.. I hate that shit with a passion. So from today on I take a pledge that I will no longer wait for anyone and take the damn ride by myself.. Anyways I felt BLAH the wholeee day today.. what a drag.. I think its because im really tired ? About to take a nap maybe, I have homework i need to do -_______-
Currently listing to: Unthinkable-Alicia Keys ft. Drake... Its been on replay ever since I can remember.. oh and another thing I have this problem were I forget things sooo quickly like I'll be talking about somthing and a split second later I'll be like uhhhh what was i just saying? Nooo goood man... Is there any pills for that ? Laterr.

Fuck jewels; I think my soul glows bright enough & fuck whips; I learn more when I ride the bus & fuck gold; it's bad enough that we fight for bucks & fuck hoes; 'cause in the end I need a man to love -- plus heaven is the life for us. . .

"I am convinced that the deepest desire within each of us is to be liberated from the controlling influences of our own psychic madness or patterns of fear. All other things—the disdain of ordinary life, the need to control others rather than be controlled, the craving for material goods as a means of security and protection against the winds of chaos—are external props that serve as substitutes for the real battle, which is the one waged within the individual soul."

Girls & Relationships.

Anticipating waiting for his call he has you like you've never witnessed before. Caught-up, in lust, and the best one; when your phone rings and your hoping that its him but you can't seem to find the "right" words to say...Hey?, hello?, Hi?, wuss sup?, Oh hey ?! (CLEARS THROAT)(SEXY VOICE) hello?! .. Yes very typical, its in all girls nature. We stay up all night wondering what hes up to or who hes spending the time that he should be spending with 'you'. Is he lieing? Hmm.. I don't want to call cause i don't want to seem "too on him" or "on his dick". We need to speak up more. You know? Voicing our opinion is something we must get to.

Mind.

There is no cure for the mind. It tells you one thing then it amends another. It drives you wild and will bring you to the conclusion that your not sane. Well your sane alright because I feel the same way. There is no escape to our thoughts, we just get more lost in them. The mind is so dysfunctional...

YUP

Nothing ever comes to you when you want it too.. Time has is lesuire.. ironic huh? I also noticed that friends come and go and the majority of the time they just USE you. I would know.. They come around more when they need a solid FAVOR "please" .. Well as we all know life goes on with or without anyone you thought you needed by yourside because mi⋅rac⋅u⋅lous⋅ly your still here. I am at the age where I am curious to know everything and am willing to do anything to find out .. but to come to think of it .. hasn't this been plain ol' mean from the GET?

My dick just died, can I bury it in your ass?

— best pick up line.

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The wind tells me all its secrets. But it makes sure to whisper them to me softly in case anyone else is around. It makes me cold everytime it comes around.. But when it does pass by it lets me know im not alone. IM BARELY HANING ON.

fuck you J

Fuck niggas, they expect everything to be handed to them .. Like pussy must fly there way. Fuck no ! Ima start getting on my gully shit with guys no doubt. I hate when guys are "feeling themselves" shit is SO NOT CUTE .. and yes this is for you Jonathan .. you swear you the man i dont even know why .. I tried yes i trieddd to make it work but that was blaintly not enough for you. So from now on i would no longer be looking your way , speaking your name , and whenever you pop up in my head ima be like nah that motha fucka is lame.. And just as you know, you would never EVER find another chick like me and thats word..