I basically raised myself. My father was never around and my mom was there but not really there. Catch my drift?.. She had her bad habits and I came accustom to mine. By the age of 11 I was already doing things I wasn't suppose to be doing. OR even thinking of. The streets had a part on it. But I think i did a pretty good job at raising myself, because here I am. 17, a high school graduate, not pregnant and im doing the best I can to stay sane.

I always feel like everyone else is better than me...or prettier, and lead better lives than me. But then I stop and realize that I am my own person. I AM UNIQUE. I have my own aura and NO ONE will ever be like me.

My impurities are what makes me perfect. And whoever can look past my old ways and scars, is one that will win me over.

The sound of the flames are beggining to get louder. I can't stop misbehaving and not following rules. What I am supose to do ? I'm confused..

Running away from something bigger than me.

Running away from problems that I no longer feel like copeing with. My heart is pounding at the same rate as my thoughts is. I can't take it, I'm giving up, I'm relapsing, I DONT GIVE A FUCK! I've been down this road many times before but this man once told me 'just hold on and be strong'.

xo

I don't know why i still find myself thinking of you till this day. I said I was over you which I am but the truth is I think i still might love you. What we had was something I never had before and thats why it hit me hard. Seeing you now with your new gf on facebbook doesnt really bother me.. I just laugh because shes a downgrade from me. But hey if youre happy, be happy.. I dont know.. maybe is the weather that has me reminising or maybe its your clothes that are lying around my house that lingers you closer to me. Or is it the dreams, cause quite honestly I see you there too ... but listen life goes on ... and like you just wrote on your status " I love you enough to let you go " ...

bullshit.

As I get older, i view people differently. I learn about all their bullshit and fairy tail liess. But I get wiser as I go along. Headaches and pangs come around too but never stay around much. Sometimes I think incorrectly because im soo confused, unheard, sad? , lonely? I dont know.. My insanity has vanished. Growing and tearing about into a new me, a better me, a SMARTER me. Life is love but love is EVIL. "I think and therfore I am" I am a overachiever with the things i want in life, and starting off with you, that can be a lost case ;)